Afraid of Me

I—I find myself afraid of my own thoughts
I know they see my mind
And I—I have secrets there
That I don't want you to find

'Cause maybe I'll speak my mind
If my thoughts decide to betray me
My secrets deep inside
Laid out—for all the world to see (And you're part of my world)

Today—tomorrow—yesterday—next week
Why am I so afraid of me?
Winter—spring—summer—fall
Why do I feel so small?
Remember—all the things I used to do (Know somethings just aren't true)
Why did I lie to you?

I—I find myself afraid of my own eyes
I know they see my mistakes
And I know they see the smiles I flashed you
How many weren't fake?

'Cause maybe I'll start seeing you
In a slightly different way
Then my thoughts and eyes
Might give it all away

Today—tomorrow—yesterday—next week
Why am I so afraid of me?
Winter—spring—summer—fall
Why do I feel so small?
Remember—all the things I used to do (Know somethings just aren't true)
Why did I lie to you?

Why am I so afraid?
What is it I don't want to say?
What is this sudden fear?
What don't I want you to hear?

But your eyes are telling me
You already know
Was it that easy to see?
You already know (How long have you known?)

Today—tomorrow—yesterday—next week
Why am I so afraid of me?
Winter—spring—summer—fall
Why do I feel so small?
Remember—all the things I used to do (Know somethings just aren't true)
Why did I lie to you?

Next week—yesterday—tomorrow—today
My eyes gave it all away